Down To One

Posted by Me Tue, 20 Jun 2006 19:36:00 GMT

So, I had my third ultrasound today. I was so nervous. I mean waiting in that room with nothing but a paper napkin to shield you – your mind just wonders and it drives you not. In any case, it took some time until Dr. BT showed up to do his thing. He had some good and bad news to tell us. Let’s lead with the good news.

Baby A is progressing and right on target. Measuring a little under an inch and had a nice strong heartbeat at 175. Apparently, Dr. BT was able to detect some fetal movement and overall Baby A was doing all right.

Now, for the bad news, Baby B didn’t develop at all. No fetal pole or heartbeat. The sac was so much smaller than Baby A’s. Apparently, Dr. BT was able to see what exactly happen. Our second embryo did apparently split since Baby B’s sac was divided into 2 sacs. However, as said, no development occured and hence we are to expect Baby B’s sac to disintegrate in the next few months. It hopefully shouldn’t affect Baby A, but there are no guarantees. A twin can disappear quite often – it’s what they call the “Vanishing Twin” syndrome.

It was sad to hear that Baby B won’t make it, but LOML and I were also not suprised either. Last u/s he/she was really behind and the heartbeat was quite slow. So, when we saw today’s u/s screen and saw how much smaller the sac was we knew the answer.

So, now we are down to one! God, I hope Baby A can hang on. Twins would have been lovely, but I’ll take one beautiful healthy baby. I pray and hope that Baby A hangs on. So far he/she is doing ok. We have another ultrasound in a week and a half (6/30). That will also be the last ultrasound I’ll have with Dr. BT. If all is well with that one, he’ll release me to a regular OB/GYN. So, we’ll see. Next ultrasound will be a big one. He said if all looks good that time my chances of miscarrying this one would go down to 1% to 2%. So, we shall see.

It’s been a rollercoaster few weeks. Singleton – Twins – Back to Singleton. I hope that next week we get some good news in regards to Baby A…well I guess we can go back to Baby G now that there is only one.

I am tired. I didn’t get much sleep last night – my mind has been pre-occupied. Anyways, I won’t have time to rest quite yet – loads of work to do.

I am grateful to have made it to another step – past another step. I am sad about Baby B and the possibility that is lost there. It’s weird that we actually “lost” 2 potential babies since our second embryo split and all. But I am focusing on Baby G (also known as Baby A) now. I hope that he/she just keeps growing and progressing. I don’t want to lose this one. I know I am still at risk – esp now that I lost the other one.

Please send us some good growth vibes for the next few weeks. We sure could use them.