What A Difference a Year Makes
Posted by Me Wed, 28 Mar 2007 16:22:00 GMT
Today is our anniversary. Three years ago today LOML & I exchanged our vows. :) I can’t believe it’s already been 3 years! We’ve known each other for 9 years total. Dated for 3 years. Engaged for one and as said married for 3 years. This year however marks another thing – we’ve been parents for almost 3 months now. :) How exciting is that? I still can’t believe it.
Yesterday while I was holding little Jack after his evening feeding I remembered the day a year ago. Though our marriage was strong even then it was a tough day. We had found out a week or so earlier that our fetus stopped growing and Dr. BT told me to expect me to miscarry any day now. Of course, I started to bleed on our anniversary in the most vicious and painful way. I remember we went out to a nice Japanese Dinner and then off to see the Cirque de Soleil Show “Ka” at the MGM. The show was great – our seats right in the center. All was well until about the last half hour when the cramps started to get stronger and stronger. All I could think of was let this show end so I can get out of here. The pain was excruciating – both physically and emotionally. I remember feeling so sad and in some hopeless that my pregnancy was not to be after 5.5 weeks. We had been so thrilled to hear that we got pregnant (finally!) after our second IVF Try. However, it wasn’t meant to be. Our second anniversary was bittersweet. LOML & I tried to make the best of the day knowing that despite everything our commitment to each other was as strong and solid as ever even if infertility was challenging us more than we had ever imagined.
A year ago today was a tough day I won’t deny it. However, fast forward one and I can’t believe how things have changed. This year we are celebrating not just 3 years of marriage but also the presence of our son, Jack! A year ago I spent a sleepless night worried about the fact that we may never have a baby of our own. Bent over in pain while my body was expelling our fetus. This year I still spent the night awake but for very different reasons. This year I was awake to keep Jack company as he was battling some annoying gas – a much better reason to be up all night. :) I mean it sucks that the little guy wasn’t happy – but I am just so thrilled at the chance to have this moment.
It’s true what they say – one can’t really know that the future has in store for you. Things change constantly. A year ago I was so down and disillusioned and this year I have a whole other person to take care of. It’s amazing and I am so grateful. We are a family. LOML & I were a family before, but this year our family has grown. Our love and commitment has grown with Jack’s arrival and I feel so blessed. In celebration, LOML & I aren’t go off to some fancy dinner on our own like last year. This year we decided to go to our favorite Sushi Restaurant for Happy Hour with Jack. My MIL offered to baby-sit, but honestly we felt that Jack should be with us today. We spent the better half of our marriage trying to get pregnant so now that he is finally here I couldn’t imagine having him out with us to celebrate.