Posted by Me
Fri, 08 Jun 2007 04:13:00 GMT
So sorry I haven’t posted sooner. Life has been a bit hectic these past few months. Here is a quick rundown of the going- on’s:
- Milk Blisters – What a Pain! Ouch!
- Diagnosis of Thrush – Double Ouch!!! Wait, make that triple Ouch!!!
- Jack and his purple mouth due Gentian Violet to get rid of Thrush – Staining pretty much everything in sight
- Me on 2 different ointments and Diflucan to combat Thrush oh and of course wincing every time Jack was nursing on my stinging nipples!
- Prepping House to Sell
- Keeping House clean for showing (not an easy task when you have a 3 month old!)
- Packing up House when offer was rendered and accepted
- Moving to Rental House while breathlessly awaiting completion of new house (won’t be ready until Aug/Sept)
- Battling Jack’s refusal to nap or in general sleep much if at all
- Enduring Jack’s blood curdling fits while being strapped into his car seat (he used to love his carseat – now not so much! LOML invested in ear plugs to make sure concentration is not compromised behind the wheel while Jack is exercising his very powerful lungs)
- Jack’s constant slobbering since he is starting to teethe and well pools of drools come with that!
The list could go on and on, but I figure you get the jist. Yes, the last few months have been a bit hectic. The move in and of itself was a major stressor. The fact that it will have to be repeated in a few months again is already giving me a headache but oh well we’ll deal.
The thrush I think is gone but man-o-man was that a pain – literally and figuratively. This Breastfeeding thing has just not been an easy road for me. I am determined to stick with it, but boy it’s been tough!
Overally though Jack is great. As cute as can be. Wish he’d sleep better or more but the fact that he is smiling a lot, likes to play with his hair, grab at more things, is learning to sit up by himself, babbles constantly – makes it all ok. He’s our little guy who is growing like a weed. He is still as alert as can be which can make feeding still a challenge since he’ll get so distracted. He’s taking everything in and loves to jump in his jumperoo. He’s become the master bouncer. We recently introduced him to the exersaucer and he’s getting the hang of it. I think though he gets frustrated since he can’t get a hold of the things he wants quite yet.
So, life is chugging along. Busy but good. I am sorry I have been so MIA. That has not been my intention – just with everything going on it is sometimes hard to find a few moments available to post. Jack likes a lot of attention so blog posting ends up being pushed to the back burner. I’ll try to be better about it and steal a few moments here and there.
Here is a link to Jack’s latest and greatest! Enjoy!
http://www.flickr.com/photos/mjg2/sets/72157600279678380/
Hope everyone is doing well!
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Posted by Me
Tue, 24 Apr 2007 02:49:20 GMT
...Where I catch myself and think “Wow, I am a Mom!” I find myself being caught off-guard at times when the realization hits that I am actually here. A Mom. The baby I am holding is my baby. My son and I get all teary and my heart swells up a million gazillion times.
Even if I am sleep-deprived and exhausted, I catch myself looking at him nodding off in my arms and realizing that I am finally here. After all the pain, the needles, the constant disappointment, I am here. I get to be the Mom. The one who gets excited when he finally poops (after days of nothing but stinky farts! LOL). The one who cheers when he manages a 30 min nap in his crib WITHOUT crying and then a 4 hour consecutive window at night. The one people hand him over to when he gets fussy and say “He wants his Mommy” and you realize they are right ‘cuz he settles down right away. The one who melts every time he flashes you a killer smile when your eyes meet.
I have dreamt of these moments for as long as I can remember and for a while there I didn’t think it would ever happen – resigning myself to potentially never being a Mom. I know at times the hormones and sleep-deprivation get the better of me, but not for a single moment am I not grateful to be where I am. It’s tough at times I won’t deny it and I have so many self-doubts about my abilities in this new role. However, ultimately it comes down to the fact that I have the family I always wanted and I consider myself so incredibly lucky. I still can’t believe that this year finally I can celebrate Mother’s Day as a Mom and not dread the day due to another failed IVF Cycle where hopes where slashed once again.
Anyways – I am rambling. :) I just still can’t believe it sometimes that I am actually a Mom.
Hope everyone had a lovely weekend and a good start of the week. My weekend was plagued with boob issues (on-going), irregular naps (still happening), short day feeds due to distraction (too much to see to actually stop and eat!) and loads of night waking (yep, still got those). Yet, on the same note, lots of giggles, coos, smiles, and cuddles. So, all in all a pretty great weekend! :)
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Posted by Me
Sat, 21 Apr 2007 03:12:00 GMT
Okay, so the issue in my last post seemed to have resolved itself without me having an infection. Phew! Thanks goodness! Eventually, the ducts got cleared and the soreness went away.
However, my boob issues are far from gone! Now, the same boob seems to have developed a milk blister. At least that’s what I think it is. It has this raised little area that is a little white – moreso if press on it. At some point, I could squeeze what looked like dried up milk out of it (it looked like a string of toothpaste). I would liken it to a white head/pimple and the pain it exuded is just as annoying.
It’s a pain – literally and figuratively. I swear I am about ready to lob this boob off and sell it for scraps. I mean can’t I get a break here? I seriously in a previous life I must have angered the boob gods and hence am suffering through the punishment now.
I don’t know. I hope this thing resolves itself. I hope it’s not thrush because of course when I research anything boob/breastfeeding-related they always warn you that you could have thrush. I have examined Jack’s mouth though and don’t see anything that could be that nor do my nipples look any different. However, as with anything, who knows? I am so tired of having boob/breastfeeding issues. This is supposed to get easier. Yeah, right! Sigh – oh well – I’ll just have to deal and make the best of it. Hopefully, whatever I have on the boob will eventually get resolved without getting worse. I sure hope so since I don’t want to end my breastfeeding experience. As much of a pain it is, I know it is good for Jack and I really want to be able to do for a year. It’s tough though!
In other news, my boy doesn’t nap well if at all. It’s an issue. We’re working on it, but it’s tough. In the meantime, until we find some kind of solution, we got ourselves one cranky little guy here. We’re talking crying fits that remind us of the good old days! ;)
Ahh – I am one bleary-eyed-boob-focused Mommy over here. However, to show that it isn’t all bad, Jack’s smile is as sweet as ever and that ultimately helps me keep my sanity. :)
All righty, he’s down for the count – who knows for how long so I better skiddadle and take my VERY HOT shower to help with the freakin’ whatcha-wanna-call-it on my boob! Bum Boob indeed!
Good Night everyone!
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Posted by Me
Mon, 09 Apr 2007 23:41:24 GMT
I have a bum boob. It’s hurting. I think it is a plugged duct since Jack hasn’t been eating as much during the day or for very long at night. I pumped the other day but ever since then it’s been hurting. I don’t think it is mastitis. I don’t have a temperature or feel flu-like. Of course I am paranoid that it is though I think at this point I am just psyching myself out.
I have had plugged ducts before. They are annoying as hell. I have been nursing Jack on it in hopes of relieving some of the pressure but no such luck thus far. I will keep an eye on it and see if it gets worse.
Sigh, I feel like I am going through a regression. Jack decided to celebrate his 3 month b-day with a night of waking every 1 to 2 hours and now a bum boob! I am tired and slightly in pain. The boob isn’t hurting more than I have felt in the past but still.
Ulgh, I hope things improve soon and I don’t have or get an infection!
Ok, off to feed the little boy and hopefully get some relief!
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Posted by Me
Sat, 07 Apr 2007 15:32:00 GMT
My little guy is 3 months old today! I can’t believe it. Where has the time gone? :)
I’d like to say that he turned 3 months old and everything magically improved – not quite. He’s better but he’s still got some pooping/gas issues and isn’t quite sleeping through the night. He sleeps in his crib but wakes up every 1 to 2 hours still towards the later hours in the night but at least he feeds for shorter times and manages to go back to sleep after each of them. A lot of the time he wakes up is due to his pooping/gas issue. Hopefully, eventually he’ll kick this pooping/gas issue and be more comfortable at night. Also, he doesn’t like to take consistent naps during the day. I try to put him in the crib and his eyes pop open and he cries. I hope that too improves with time – for now he cat naps throughout the day in his swing, car seat, or when we hold him. Not ideal but we’re working on it.
Other than that he’s absolutely amazing. He smiles, coos, gurgles, babbles all the time. He is so much more alert now and checks everything out. He seems to smile so much more when he sees Mommy or Daddy and it’s great. He is also discovering his hands and it is so funny to watch him get mesmerized by them throughout the day. He’s definitely the star in our lives. We are having so much fun getting know this little guy and watching him discover new things everyday.
I still can’t believe that I am actually a Mom. A Mom! A Mom to this adorable, sweet, alert little boy. I am so grateful for the chance and know that this is a gift – a miracle. He’s growing up so fast – I mean he’s still little – but has changed so much from when we first brought him home.
To see some of his latest pics, go here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/mjg2/sets/72157600050610219/
I personally thought LOML took some really great ones of him in his bunny outfit in the bouncy seat. Daddy can always get a smile out of him. The last ones that look more staged where taken at “Portrait Innovations” with his cousins. He did really well but eventually got tuckered out. We got some good ones though of him sitting in his Man Chair though. :)
Well, life is pretty amazing when you get to type up a post while your little boy hangs out on your lap keeping you company. Last year we went to Lake Las Vegas and watched a big Easter Egg Hunt Event take place. We didn’t know that it would take place – we just thought it’d be fun to go out there – it was sweet to see all the kids, but admittedly hard to watch since we were still very much in thick of our infertility journey. This Easter is pretty special. We are going over to my In-Laws for Easter and having lunch. I am sure it’ll be fun. How can it not be when you have this little guy smiling right back at you.
Happy Easter everyone!
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