Posted by Me
Tue, 18 Apr 2006 00:33:00 GMT
Yep, I have started my Lupron Injections. Oh Joy! :) I stop my Birth Control Pills tomorrow and then go in for my Baseline U/S & Blood Test a week from now. Hopefully, all will look ok down there and we get the go-ahead for the next stage – growing my lovely lining! :) I’ll be back on estrogen and hope for the best. So far, the Lupron is only making me a bit more tired – but then again I don’t know if that is due to the meds or I am just tired!
It’s kind of weird to be such a “pro” at this, ya’ know? I know the drill. I know the meds. I know what should come next! The schedule is pretty easy to figure out. When to come in for what and how long they expect things to go. Dr. BT surely has it down pat. It’s also kind of weird to be back at this again. I didn’t think I would have to be back here but then again this is the life I know. I don’t remember life before IVF so the routine that IVF brings unfortunately is what I know. It’s just part of life. Kinda’ sad, huh? I mean part of me can’t even imagine being done with it, ya’ know? Having it actually succeed and being discharged from Dr. BT. So far I am just feeling I am part of this loop. Not sure when I’ll get off or how. :)
Life is strange. I am tired and could do with a nap. I really don’t know why I am so tired. Blah! Very annoying when you are trying to be productive.
Anyways, just wanted to say I am still alive and kickin’! Meds are coursing through my body but not the super crazy ones yet. Those will come in a week. Work is keeping me busy and will keep me even more busy in a few weeks. Yowzers! Easter was spent with family and it was lovely. No talk of infertility so I was a happy camper. :)
What else? Hmm, I have been having a sweet tooth these days which is very very bad. I already feel like th biggest blimp due to months and months of IVF Cycles which unfortunately fatten you up like nobody’s business. I mean seriously how cruel is that you end up the size of a house who should be shopping at “A Pea in a Pod” but really has no viable reason to. Damn Fertility Drugs – but it’s ok. I keep telling myself that it’s all good IF all this can get me pregnant and keep me that way until I can hold my little, healthy miracle in my arms! :) Ahh well – anyways, I constantly feel like snacking, but have been good and keeping it to a minimum. No need to pack on even more pounds before I get on the crazy meds. :) (Though, really, I could go for a TCBY frozen yogurt right now! That’s some yummy stuff!)
If you want to read a really good Infertility Post, go here. Tertia just nailed it. I couldn’t have said it better myself. I know infertility is really hard to comprehend and honestly unless you are unfortunate enough to go through it it is hard to understand. Her post hit really home and it’s amazing to realize that the emotions that course through my body isn’t really that unique. Her success story is what keeps me going. I hope to make it to the “other side” one of these days! Let’s keep our fingers crossed, shall we?
In the meantime, for your listening pleasure, please check out Nontourage for the best account of what living and working in Hollywood is really like. “Brunette” is my best friend who I have known for ages and she just put up a video teaser of the sitcom she produced/directed/wrote this past March. It’s really awesome so please check it out and show her some suppport!! She’s an amazing lady and deserves some props! :) So go check out Brunette & Blonde’s account of the fab life in Hollywood!
All righty, back to work for me! Have a lovely night everyone!
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Posted by Me
Fri, 27 Jan 2006 23:40:00 GMT
Ultrasound and Blood Test went well this morning. We have 23 follicles! Definitely have a better response on these meds than before. As Dr. BT said I am a different person! Yowzers!
In any case, it is GO TIME! We trigger tonight at 11pm (5000 units of the hCG Shot). FUN! I go in tomorrow morning for a Blood Test and a Pre-op Check-up. My Retrieval is scheduled for Sunday at 10am. I have to be at the office at 9:30am. Lovely!
I am happy that it is Sunday because (a) I don’t have to take a day off from work (b) I am so damn uncomfortable that I would like to be relieved of all the eggs that are hopefully growing inside me. I really hope that there are indeed a lot of eggs there and Dr. BT will be able to retrieve them all. And once he does, I so hope they are super duper quality and make it to the Blastocyst Stage (5 days) which we need in order for them to be able to be frozen which is the plan! Please, please, please send us some good egg/retrieval vibes. We are far from out of the woods. Remember we are hoping for quantity and excellent quality!!!!! Last time we thought we would get 8 eggs at Retrieval Time and only ended up with 3. Out of which only 2 fertilized well enough to be transferred. One step at a time, but we could certainly use some good thoughts from everyone around. Anyone who has been through IVF knows that so many things can happen between now and Fertilization Stage. I just don’t want to be disappointed again after Retrieval. Last time it just sucked when Dr. BT told us they only got 3 eggs. 1 didn’t make it. The other 2 were transferred without success. :( Keep your fingers crossed.
Anyways, we shall see how the cookie will crumble. Right now, I am at risk for Ovarian Hyperstimulation so they have to monitor me and hence I am getting less of the hCG Shot. Yay, me!
I am nervous. Oh so nervous. I mean I have been here before, but you know. All this stuff is just crazy nerve-racking. You never know what’s going to happen. How everything will play out. The goal with any of this is to take it one step at a time. So, that’s what we will do. One step a time.
All righty, I need to change into comfy pants (also lovingly known as my fat pants), my stomach feels insanely tight! Goddamn the bloating!!!!! To top it all off, I have to eat dried prunes to help soften up my stool. Yes, I have been having bowel issues. Dr. BT said I am de-hydrated and need to step up my bran intake. So, in addition to feeling like a giant water balloon crammed into pants that are 3 sizes to small, I am a veritable farting machine as well. It’s been very distracting trying to wrap up work while hearing my stomach making odd sounds. It’s just not happy!
Ahh well, no pain no gain! On that note, have a lovely Friday evening everyone! I’ll keep you posted on how things go.
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Posted by Me
Sun, 11 Dec 2005 18:42:00 GMT
So in keeping with my determination to accomplish what I set out to do, last night while LOML was “pokering”, I decided to try out the Barefoot Contessa’s scone recipe. It was the first time I got to use my Standing Mixer since I got it for our wedding. They turned out all right. I unfortunately burned some but was able to create about 17 medium size scones. They are edible. Only thing – I think I left them in the oven a little longer than necessary since they are rather crispy on the outside. However, I have to say they are pretty moist and flakey on the inside (Thanks to Fleishmans Unsalted Margerine!!).
Overall, I think the scone experiment was a success. They are edible which is the most important thing. I’ll probably refine the recipe some more as time goes on and work on my oven timing and overall presentation (they do not look like the picture in the book!).
I’ll have to see what else I want to try out. I am not a baker but as of late have enjoyed the activity. I hate the clean-up, being that I am a terribly messy cook, but alas no pain no gain!
In general, I’d like to become a better cook in the kitchen. I always marvel at those folks who can “whip” something up that’s magically delicious. I haven’t gotten that natural cooking instinct. My inner Martha still has to make an appearance. However, I do want to be a good cook. I think there is something very sensual about the cooking process. My parents and sister are all excellent cooks. So, I think I have the gene in me somewhere.
Boy, all this talking about food is making me hungry. Is it time for lunch yet? ;)
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Posted by Me
Mon, 05 Dec 2005 02:32:00 GMT
Ok, so I suck. It’s 6:30pm and I didn’t accomplish most that was on my list today. Ulgh! I hate that. Some tasks took me a lot longer than I had anticipated. Ahh, well!
I did accomplish ordering the corporate gifts. Prepping the packages for the UPS Store tomorrow. Calling my mother. And that’s where the list end. I failed to clean (we’ll have to live in this hovel for at least a day longer), write out more X-mas cards, wrap presents, and bake the scones!
Oh well, I had good intentions. I ended up working a bit with my LOML, spending more time on the packages and on the phone with family and friends. So overall it was a good and fairly productive day. It bums me out a bit that it is Sunday and tomorrow the work week starts again but it’s ok. I’ll manage. It’ll be a busy week, but when are weeks not busy? I am itching to finish some of the holiday tasks so I can get them off my list. They can be so distracting. We’ll see if I get to them.
I am looking forward to watching another episode of “Grey’s Anatomy” tonight. I LOVE that show. Great writing. Great acting…and what’s not to love about seeing Dr. McDreamy strut his stuff. I don’t think I have ever seen anyone make Scrubs look so good as Patrick Dempsey. :)
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Posted by Me
Sun, 04 Dec 2005 18:08:00 GMT
Sunday – the day of rest for most people out there, for me usually the signal of the day I complete, or rather should complete my chores. Ulgh!
I hate chores. I hate cleaning. I like a clean house, but I hate the process it takes to get there especially when I know that the amount that it takes to get there is by far more than the amount it takes to get it messy again. It’s just a never-ending process and we don’t even have kids to blame the mess on. Just 2 lazy cats who have a penchant for throwing their food on the kitchen floors and shedding every piece of hair on their body. I mean, seriously, if they just decided to chip in a little, my life would be so much easier!
Ahh, well such is life. I will eventually get started. Yes, yes, I am composing an entry about what I am about to begin for the sole purpose that I am stalling. Procrastinating. Did I mention I hate to clean? My LOML is working on the computer in the office and watching the football game du jour in the background. I only mention the football game ‘cuz it is a running joke between us that I have to remind him that football is on and I don’t even like it. I just know that Sunday is Football Day on TV. For the past few weeks, every time I ask him how the game is going he looks at me with a “Oh no! I forgot it was on!” expression and turns it on as the final seconds run off the clock. Today is no different. Who said I wasn’t a good wife? I make sure my hubby fills his football-watching quota for the week.
While he is doing that I have plenty to keep me occupied. I have to finish preparing my order for the corporate gifts, pack some gifts to be taken to the UPS Store tomorrow (I hate the Post Office and will unfortunately subject myself to the price gauging that is present at the UPS Store just so I can avoid the long lines and utter frustration that awaits me at my not-so-friendly neighborhood post office!). I have to make more headway on my X-mas Card list though I really don’t feel like it and may push it off for a week, (though admittedly I have felt a pang of guilt every time I receive another one in the mail already!). I may start wrapping some presents that I have been stuffing unceremoniously into the Guest Room’s Closet. On a good note though, I am nearly done with the gift consumption for this year—minor little something’s left for friends, my folks in Florida, and LOML’s boss and his wife. It’s getting there…Halleluja!!
Other than that, I’ve got the usual cleaning thing to do to make sure we don’t live in a complete hovel, check in with my folks in Florida though I am dreading that one a little since I really don’t feel like hearing about my Mom’s discontent with my sister’s behavior (which by the way is totally unfounded and ridiculous, but I’ll leave that for another time), and if I have some spare time left I may attempt to channel Julia Childs and try out this scone recipe which has been intriguing me for quite some time. It requires me to use my cool scarlet standing mixer so that might be some good fun since I really haven’t used that thing much (if ever) since I got it for my wedding a year or so ago. I feel it is time I take that baby out for a spin.
So, lots on the agenda and yet no real gung-ho motivation to do it. Ahh well, gotta’ do what has to be done. Happy Sunday, everyone!
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