Posted by Me
Wed, 14 Dec 2005 00:30:00 GMT
I have been so exhausted these past few days and I am not sure why. I sleep. I am not living extremely (or even ordinary) stressful days. I think I may be getting sick and so my body is trying to fight whatever damn illness might be brewing underneath. I just wish it could do that without knocking me out. (Knocking me up, sure! Just not knocking me out. ;))
I am not sure what is going on but I could nap all day (not that I do), but still. Last night I was reading and fell asleep while reading and then had to call it at 9pm since I could barely keep my eyes open. I slept fine and couldn’t really drag myself out of bed. Our morning walks have been shelved these past few days since I can’t manage to wake up early enough. Ulgh!
Maybe it is the cold (weather). Maybe it is the impending cold (illness). Maybe it is my hormones being all out of whack. Maybe my body is prepping for its period. Who knows??? Whatever it is it is quite inconvenient.
YAWN – is it bedtime yet?
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Posted by Me
Wed, 07 Dec 2005 20:02:00 GMT
LOML and I have been married for a little over a year. Though the infertility crap has made it a bit more challenging than we like, I have to say relationship-wise we are a-okay! He’s my best friend. My Love. MY LOML!
Despite how good things are we both have our spats here and there (moreso when I am unnaturally pumped with hormones, but that’s another story!). What normal couple doesn’t? However, in light of recent news of a friend’s impending divorce, it made me pause and ponder why some marriages last and some don’t. This past year I have heard of at least 3 (now 4) divorces. In all cases, the wives left their husbands or rather didn’t argue in the face of the dissolution of their marriage. It’s an interesting concept. I think in all cases the husbands didn’t really expect it. I mean some knew something was up but assumed it would take on a slower pace aka separate first and then eventually file for divorce. But, boy, where they wrong. When they openend up the conversations with their wives, their better halves didn’t waver a second but felt like “Why bother doing it slowly?” – “Let’s get on with it and make it final!”. Before their husbands could comprehend the enormity of it, their soon-to-be-exes already commissioned lawyers and had the papers drawn. Needless to say a lot of the “husbands” are still reeling from their wives’ (re)actions.
When a relationship ends, it’s sad no matter how it came to pass. The divorces I know about ended for all different reasons – cheating on the side of the spouse, growing apart, or whatever else may fall under “irreconcilable differences”. Some of these marriages lasted for 10 years… some for only 2. Some involve kids. Some don’t. But as said, regardless, it’s an unfortunate turn of events.
Relationships with anyone takes work. It takes effort and patience. LOML and I have had our share of challenges during our dating life and our current infertile predicament can certainly put its strains our our relationship if we let it. We try not to. We know we’re in it together and we’ll deal with whatever comes our way. We have both compromised and sacrificed for the other for the betterment of our relationship without any regrets.
However, it makes you wonder at what point in a relationship do you realize you are done. That’s it. No compromises can and will be made. Is it when you realize you don’t love the person anymore? You love someone else? Or is it something more mundane and simple like you just don’t see the point and are unwilling to put the other person first? You essentially grew apart. I know things end and people are constantly evolving so with that in mind it is natural for some things to change. My hope and goal is continue to adapt to whatever changes may occur in my marriage. Nothing is more important. And at this point at least, there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do to make it work. However, I don’t know the future and can only speak on how I feel right now. I do believe in fighting for the important things in life and just like I will endure intensely invasive procedures for the shot at motherhood I feel the same about going the distance when it comes to this marriage thing.
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