Posted by Me
Fri, 09 Dec 2005 23:13:00 GMT
Or so I think at least! :) These past few days I have been working overtime to get some of this Holiday crap out of the way! (Can’t you tell I am so in the Holiday Spirit?!) In any case, it took some doing but I was able to cross things of my list! Yay.
X-mas Cards went out in the mail today (albeit some outstanding ones where I still need to procure new addresses!). According to my self-imposed schedule, the sent-off came early. :) I had planned on working on them this weekend and sending them out on Friday. Alas, I had some energy last night and just finished them off. Thank goodness!
All the presents have been bought. The ones that needed to be shipped – were shipped out yesterday and those that remain in town were all wrapped and are currently stacked in the Guest Room (away from the cats) looking pretty in their fancy wrapping paper! (Thank goodness for Costco!)
I picked up the dry cleaning for our party outfits. We are attending my Grandfather’s X-mas Party. He belongs to an Asian Organization in town and they have a holiday shindig this Sunday. We will be in attendance and my darling LOML even agreed to don a suit for the occasion! Yay! I love it when he wears the suit (which is oh so rare!). He looks so handsome in it. I plan on wearing a black skirt with a black sweater and red heels. Dressy but not too dressy. I think it’ll work! I am hoping the black will hide some of my fertility fat! LOL We shall see if my plan works! :)
So, overall I think we are on track. I have to get the house in order. Work on our business website, in addition to the client work that’s on my plate. It’s all good. I am just glad to have all this holiday stuff completed. It’s time-consuming so the sooner it is out of the way the better! :) Now, I can focus on the important things.
And though most of the X-mas consumerism is senseless and futile. I do like trying to find a little something that will make the recipient smile. It warms my heart to know I brightened their day. It’s not about the value of the present but the thoughtfulness. I am not good at just giving the “crap” present. You know a something that’s really generic? I like there to be some thought attached to the present. It makes the gift-giving harder, but I think more worthwhile. If I am adding more “stuff” to people’s lives I’d like it to be something they will appreciate and wouldn’t have bought themselves. :) So there ya’ go. Happy Holidays Everyone!
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Posted by Me
Mon, 05 Dec 2005 02:32:00 GMT
Ok, so I suck. It’s 6:30pm and I didn’t accomplish most that was on my list today. Ulgh! I hate that. Some tasks took me a lot longer than I had anticipated. Ahh, well!
I did accomplish ordering the corporate gifts. Prepping the packages for the UPS Store tomorrow. Calling my mother. And that’s where the list end. I failed to clean (we’ll have to live in this hovel for at least a day longer), write out more X-mas cards, wrap presents, and bake the scones!
Oh well, I had good intentions. I ended up working a bit with my LOML, spending more time on the packages and on the phone with family and friends. So overall it was a good and fairly productive day. It bums me out a bit that it is Sunday and tomorrow the work week starts again but it’s ok. I’ll manage. It’ll be a busy week, but when are weeks not busy? I am itching to finish some of the holiday tasks so I can get them off my list. They can be so distracting. We’ll see if I get to them.
I am looking forward to watching another episode of “Grey’s Anatomy” tonight. I LOVE that show. Great writing. Great acting…and what’s not to love about seeing Dr. McDreamy strut his stuff. I don’t think I have ever seen anyone make Scrubs look so good as Patrick Dempsey. :)
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Posted by Me
Sun, 04 Dec 2005 18:08:00 GMT
Sunday – the day of rest for most people out there, for me usually the signal of the day I complete, or rather should complete my chores. Ulgh!
I hate chores. I hate cleaning. I like a clean house, but I hate the process it takes to get there especially when I know that the amount that it takes to get there is by far more than the amount it takes to get it messy again. It’s just a never-ending process and we don’t even have kids to blame the mess on. Just 2 lazy cats who have a penchant for throwing their food on the kitchen floors and shedding every piece of hair on their body. I mean, seriously, if they just decided to chip in a little, my life would be so much easier!
Ahh, well such is life. I will eventually get started. Yes, yes, I am composing an entry about what I am about to begin for the sole purpose that I am stalling. Procrastinating. Did I mention I hate to clean? My LOML is working on the computer in the office and watching the football game du jour in the background. I only mention the football game ‘cuz it is a running joke between us that I have to remind him that football is on and I don’t even like it. I just know that Sunday is Football Day on TV. For the past few weeks, every time I ask him how the game is going he looks at me with a “Oh no! I forgot it was on!” expression and turns it on as the final seconds run off the clock. Today is no different. Who said I wasn’t a good wife? I make sure my hubby fills his football-watching quota for the week.
While he is doing that I have plenty to keep me occupied. I have to finish preparing my order for the corporate gifts, pack some gifts to be taken to the UPS Store tomorrow (I hate the Post Office and will unfortunately subject myself to the price gauging that is present at the UPS Store just so I can avoid the long lines and utter frustration that awaits me at my not-so-friendly neighborhood post office!). I have to make more headway on my X-mas Card list though I really don’t feel like it and may push it off for a week, (though admittedly I have felt a pang of guilt every time I receive another one in the mail already!). I may start wrapping some presents that I have been stuffing unceremoniously into the Guest Room’s Closet. On a good note though, I am nearly done with the gift consumption for this year—minor little something’s left for friends, my folks in Florida, and LOML’s boss and his wife. It’s getting there…Halleluja!!
Other than that, I’ve got the usual cleaning thing to do to make sure we don’t live in a complete hovel, check in with my folks in Florida though I am dreading that one a little since I really don’t feel like hearing about my Mom’s discontent with my sister’s behavior (which by the way is totally unfounded and ridiculous, but I’ll leave that for another time), and if I have some spare time left I may attempt to channel Julia Childs and try out this scone recipe which has been intriguing me for quite some time. It requires me to use my cool scarlet standing mixer so that might be some good fun since I really haven’t used that thing much (if ever) since I got it for my wedding a year or so ago. I feel it is time I take that baby out for a spin.
So, lots on the agenda and yet no real gung-ho motivation to do it. Ahh well, gotta’ do what has to be done. Happy Sunday, everyone!
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Posted by Me
Fri, 02 Dec 2005 23:56:00 GMT
This whole post-failed-IVF thing is weird. Certainly throwing me for a loop. Some days I am fine. Some days I get somber. I haven’t cried since the official word came back in November, but I still am waiting to return to normal. However, I think there is no “normal”.
Once you get diagnosed with infertility, being “normal” goes out the window (along with spontaneous sex!) never to return. It’s weird. These past few weeks I have found myself spending a lot of time remembering my life BI (before infertility). I remember my carefree and most importantly hopeful days. I used phrases “when I have kids” instead of “if I ever get to have kids”. I miss those days. I miss the days of old where I had hope and belief that I was “normal”. I am not “normal”. My body isn’t “normal”.
Infertility has branded me and though I know it doesn’t define me I can’t get rid of it either. It taints everything. I can find moments in my day where I pretend I am not. Go about my day and focus on other things then the fact that my body is broken. It doesn’t last long. Something will jut me back into reality and it’s hard. People who aren’t infertile can’t understand what it means or why it is so all-encompassing. The idea of possibly never having your own child is so big and overwhelming. A fear so chilling it’s debilitating. It stops you dead in your tracks.
I want those BI days back. I want the days of not knowing back. The hope that having children was just within my grasp and didn’t involve invasive procedures, extreme amounts of blood letting, and a body that resembles more of a pincushion than anything else. I miss not caring what my body was doing. I would kill for not noticing and wondering about every twinge, twitch, or cramp my body gives off. People who don’t know what it’s like will tell you don’t think about it. It doesn’t work that way. I tried to fight it. However, how can you? I mean coupled with the fact that this is the single most important thing you wanted in your entire life only to find out that it isn’t going to be easy sucks.
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Posted by Me
Thu, 01 Dec 2005 22:59:00 GMT
Despite my “Seasonal Misgivings”, I have taken part in the usual Holiday Traditions aka X-MAS SHOPPING! Yes, I actually started my “gift accumulation” early this year. I hate the X-mas Rush that seems to pervade the malls and shopping centers. I mean the crowds make me nauseaus and I just don’t have the patience to stand in line and get that one item. All too often I will scrap my original idea and resort to the beauty that is called the Internet! Google is a magnificent thing!
I was feeling pretty good in November (well, despite the failed IVF cycle) since I had most everyone on my list taken care of. However, now that I find myself in December, I realized my list was amiss. I only included the
“Core” group on my list (parents, in-laws, nephew/nieces etc.), but didn’t account for all those ancillary friends and acquaintances for which a “little something” would be appropriate. And from there it is a slippery slope and you find yourself face-to-face with the EVER-EXPANDING X-MAS LIST (not to mention the ever-shrinking disposable income!).
As we speak, I spent my day working on some corporate gifts for our clients. We are a fledgeling company but made the executive decision to get a little something for our clients to show our appreciation and good will. We picked a nice box of chocolates. Nothing ostentatious. Nothing that screams “GIVE US YOUR BUSINESS! WE LOVE YOU!” (it’s more like a gentle nudge followed by a whisper ;)). The great thing is that the place we are ordering the chocolates from lets you add your logo image to the boxes and the card for no additional cost. It’s great. :) So, with that in my mind, I am trying to finish off the graphics and get the gifts ordered in time for the holiday season.
Every year I find myself in this position where I think I have the gift purchasing completed well ahead of schedule and then find myself remiss in my less than complete X-mas List. Yikes! I hate nothing more than being found empty-handed. It’s only December 1st, but I think I am getting to the end of my list…at least I hope. :)
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